so, a ton has happened as usual. i'm in basketball right now. it's fun, but my asthma is in complete control. i haven't gotten through a practice without an attack for at least a month now. It hurts really bad. It's killing me emotionally too. i mean, this is what i'm good at! oh well, i'll be fine. my break has been pretty lonely. i haven't hung out with anyone since wednesday.

here's some poems i wrote last night:

#5, arms of sadness

it grips me even though it has no hands
and reveals to me no line of escape
i fall fall down into dark unknown lands
these voices keep telling me i'm too late
is there truly no good in this world now?
when a person like me resorts to this?
i am going to find the truth somehow
figure out what is keeping me from bliss
the arms of sadness have pulled me in fast
my eyes covered, i can't see my past

#6, silently searching

i'm surrounded by silence, it holds me
but i long for your hand steady in mine
there are no words to explain the feelings
never before this did i see the signs
i am trapped now, there's no turning away
these blank, dark walls stretch far beyond my reach
and what are these words i hear you say?
"stay secure in the ideas that you preach"
alone and searching, silently seeking
answers for questions about life's feelings

and here's one i wrote a few days ago:

Sonnet #3 Speak to me 12-23/24-06

And what are these words that you speak to me?

triumphantly exclaiming the great news

their meaning so pure like a symphony

so those unrequested will leave confused

speak to me beautiful, spill out your heart

and let the words from the broken be healed

nothing you say can make our love part

for within our first embrace it was sealed

speak to me now, let me hear from your mind

speak to me surely you're one of a kind

i'll leave it at that, but i'm sure i can find some more around here somewhere. :)

Currently Listening Composure By Waking Ashland I am for you see related

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well, the excitement of xanga has really cooled off in the last year. :) it's been three months since my last update though, so a ton has happened. I finished off the volleyball season with a second place finish in the columbia invitational tournament. it was amazing! now i'm in the heat of basktball and our coaches are pretty tough. i was sick all last week so that didn't make basketball any easier. I am going to be in our churches drama production this year....  :)  and i have soccer practice for 3v3 today. our team won last year, but we have to play in the sophmore bracket now--not an easy task. well, time for church but i figured i'd say hey!!

Currently Listening Albatross By The Classic Crime I know the feeling see related

less than a month before we go back to school.....i know, that's so sad! My sister recently cracked her inner growth plate on her elbow when she fell off the high bar in gymnastics. One of my previous science teachers, Mrs. Stockwell, had a baby boy on thursday!! his name is owen and he's gorgeous. I'm doing the jeff volleyball camp this week and it's a lot of fun. I played in a basketball tournament recently and that was a blast, and my last fling with the boys was show me games this past weekend!! We didn't medal, but hey, we got ripped off anyway, right?! Best of all though......

IT'S MY MOMMY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!

 so as you can tell, i've kept pretty busy this summer!! I hope that everyone's summer is everything it should be!!!

here's a pic of amelia....that's one hardcore gymnast right there folks!!!

Currently Listening Set It Off By Thousand Foot Krutch Moment of the Day see related

Hope everyone's summer is going great!!! Here's a few pics from Cornerstone!!!

This is why you don't throw knives-->

Henry and Seth decided to get a little firewood-->

Ya, Henry's Gangsta!

Michaela, Chris, and i going three-way with the knives-->

Ahh, the beauty of cornerstone advertising!!!

GOD BLESS!!